Why I'm making a blog

For a while now I’ve felt like God wanted me to make a blog although I don’t know why. I’m not really a writer and it’s just not something that seems like me. I’ve pushed it off but earlier today I’ve started to realize my disobedience. It was already disobedience that I have waited this long to make the blog, but I want to answer God’s calling. So that’s why I made this blog. I want it to be a way for me to share what God is teaching me in my everyday life and hopefully help others learn and grow faster than I did. I want Jesus to be glorified, not me. I in no way claim to be perfect or have perfect thoughts, so take everything said to God and His Word.

So why not start with what I’m realizing today and just being open and vulnerable? I realized that my fear of the Lord is tiny. I may not be doing drugs or murdering people or any other blatant sin, but every single time I disobey even the littlest of His commands I sin. “The fear of God is evidenced in our lives by instant, joyful and whole obedience to God. That is biblical obedience. Anything else is disobedience.” God told me to make a blog probably a week or more ago. I just did today. As I walked around today God told me to talk to random people and I didn’t. At one point I was scared to ask God what He wanted me to do because I didn’t believe that I would do it if it didn’t fit my comfort zone or agenda. I plan my day out on my own accord instead of asking Him. What I’m doing is just trying to make God happy by being responsible and obedient with the big, blatant things, but allowing the little things to still be under my control. I must listen for and obey even the smallest things “pray continually” (1 Thessalonians 5:17).

So what’s my point? My point is that I am called to submit my life to Jesus full heartedly! I want to fear God as I would a Father who wants the best for His son. I want to hate sin as much as God does. I WANT to be disciplined when I disobey God (yes, I am kind of scared to ask God this, but I will because it’s worth it). I want to be faithful in His eyes. I don’t want to care what the people around me think; I just want to care what God thinks. And this starts through a couple of ways.

1) Recognizing the areas of disobedience I currently live in no matter how “small” and repenting of them.

2) Asking God to give me His hatred of sin and asking for his discipline when I disobey.

3) Obeying Him in quick, joyful, and full obedience.

4) Constantly asking God what I should do. This is even when I’m walking from one place to another, when I’m driving what music to listen to (or not), etc.

5) A continual clinging to the cross and filling of the Holy Spirit.

So I get the fear of the Lord, then what? Then I experience freedom. His plan is always right and good. Being obedient is the smartest, funnest, free-est thing that I could possible do. More joy. More love. More life. Lord, help me understand what it means to fear You, and Holy Spirit do it in me